So, this is my last day at WVM. Yes, after today, I shall be officially unemployed and between jobs. I just hope I will not be between jobs for too long.
But I am blardy excited about going for my break. So how do I put this...what I feel now is something like hmm...like wondering if I should take a roller coaster ride or not. I know I'm going to miss the solid ground when i'm ON the roller coaster but I'm definitely not going to have all the fun if I stay on land.
I do feel a bit sad about leaving WVM. Admittedly, it is an awesome place to work and there are some really sweet people here whom I would like to keep as good friends. But I also know that my passion is not in this area of work. And I would be lying to myself if I said that it has been 100% satisfaction on my side(or their side!) whenever I work. Even though I know I am trying my best, I feel as if I'm not really reaching the mark.
It is been fulfilling, certainly I know that everything that I do, is in someway or another helping people who do not have the means to help themselves. I do not think I regret in anyway coming here to work because it is this stable lifestyle and wholesome people around me that helped get me through my painful year 2007. And to begin the year 2008 with them is equally important to remind me that at the end of the day, there are a lot of people who still need help and no matter where I go, I will always be a willing volunteer of World Vision.
On the other end, i am excited...*dances around* coz in another few days time, i'll be in Sg then in PERTH!!! *squeals*
And then, i will embark on something totally different...which is a different job in another land. well...WHEN i actually get the job that is...
So yea, at the moment sometimes i get this nagging feeling that I am being stupid to jump ship when my future is not settled but I as I mentioned before, year 2007 has taught me that life does not have to always go to plan and sometimes, some risks are more worth the nagging fear in your heart and mind.
- Mood:
excited - Music:Sha la la from Full House OST
A moment to enlighten
A moment to form a thought
A moment of decision
A moment to fall
A moment to lose
A moment of determination
A moment of grace
A moment of fear
A moment to chase
A moment to change
A moment to make a moment count.
While I was taking my shower and clearing my basket of thoughts, I wondered how many times in life have we allowed moments to pass us by. Many times that split second is the tip of the scale and our choices in that second decides how this world turns.
After placing some thought into it, I really wished I could sit down and write a play about moments. I want to exaggerate a moment of a person's life. To take it, highlight it, analyse it and magnify it.
The moment a woman decided that her husband was not worth the time and went to bed with her boss.
The moment a youth realises that his father's years of hard-work had all been in the hope that he would succeed in life.
The moment an old lady lost her determination as the matriarch to keep her squabbling family together.
The moment a brother forgot that family mattered and found no grace in his heart for his sister's mistake.
I wanted to have a stage, with a huge clock at the back showing the time and as each plot unfolds to the moment. That moment is plucked out, and slowed down and analysed...in each idea, each move, each possibility. And of course it will slip back in to the flow of 'normal' time after that to see how the plot ends for each person.
Raw raw raw...raw ideas.
- Mood:
lethargic - Music:Inaka no Seikatsu from Honey & Clover
I cannot wait to go...Am traveling by Tiger Airways...I pray that it would be okay. I think I'm pretty durable...and its only 5 hours. I've survived Air Asia...so it cant be all too bad. *cross fingers*
Anyway, I learned two new things yesterday...one poetic and the other a fact.
1) A heart is grown between 2 persons.
- Was watching Bleach...and something that was said by Kaien interest me. He mentioned that a heart, is not within the body but when 2 persons meet, a heart is grown between them. I found that true. I mean there are millions of people in the world but you do not have a heart for each person...only when you meet someone, by divine arrangement or fate or whatever you call it...and when you want to care for that person, that is when a heart grows between the both of you.
Hmm, i didnt manage to place it properly in words, but i think for those who watch Bleach, they would get what I'm saying.
2) Bombay Blood.
-Discovered the existence of Bombay blood through another anime, yakitate japan. (as you can see, i was having an anime spree). Bombay blood is really rare. If you are interested in genetics and all, check it out here: http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Hh_antigen
Its really interesting...I never knew there were other blood combinations than the usual 4. And Bombay Blood, unfortunately cannot accept any other blood types except its own. So if you have it, chances are, only your parents or close family members would be able to transfuse blood to you.
Another interesting point: Bombay blood is only possible when both parents (who have Bombay blood) pass it on to their children. Usually within noble families where marriages between relatives are a norm
- Mood:
working
- Remember, remember the Fifth of November,
- The Gunpowder Treason and Plot,
- I know of no reason
- Why Gunpowder Treason
- Should ever be forgot.
- Mood:
thoughtful
Constant drooling over object: Saab 900i
*Giggle*
The radio is playing the NKOTB's songs pretty frequent. Probably because they are planning to reunite. (check it out: http://www.eonline.com/news/article/ind
Actually I was never really old enough to think that way...the NKOTB period was really due to my 2 older sisters who loved them...I on the other hand, just joined in the fun without really figuring out who was who in that boy group until much later.
As for the Saab 900...well, its always been a small indulgence of mine to croon over it. And much to the roll-my-eyes colleague's exasperation, I yet again spotted another one of the road this morning (its really rare to see one abt, especially in msia). So there I was, going "Oh OH!! Its the Saab 900!!! Speed UP!!" To which her reply was " It looks like an old car to me." And my excited reply being " It may be old, but its still going faster than your car, so speed up!!" Anyway, we lost the car to the myriad of highways after a few mins. big sigh. For those who dont know about the Saab 900 (which are many people) check it out here: http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Saab_9
Its a vintage looking thing with a smooth smooth smooth engine. I like.
Hmm, how did I begin liking the Saab 900? Simple. Before Saab, there was just some random looking at cars and the general consensus on my part about a few of them looking good and functions well. But one evening, I dont remember who was driving...but we were driving down the Perth bridge across the Swan River towards Perth city at sunset. It was autumn, and the sunset was gorgeous. And next to us, cruising, almost lazily was this golden Saab 900i. The 900i is a special edition, and the colour gold is not the usual flashing shit the ah beng's have on their car. The vintage, dusty gold that reminds you of the 1980s where rock and roll and cadillacs still ruled the world.
That was the moment, the second I set my eyes on the Saab, I was entranced. I followed it all the way down the bridge and finally when it turned away towards Kings Park, I sat back, took a deep breath and totally fell in love with that car. If I ever got the chance, I would wish to own one...but with the thin pocket I have, just a ride in an autumn sunset in that car would be enough.
- Mood:
happy
Anyway, the reason for this post, except for the nervous butterflies in my tummy due to the lingering thoughts that I have not achieved the things I wanted to so far...is about the plan for a break to Perth.
yes, i am going, i dont care even if it makes me broke. I want to go to Perth and just enjoy myself there for a while and give myself some form of closure.
At the moment, I just need to do my work and maybe later tonight, when I am not tied up with work, i shall send emails and book my flight etc.
This is a very random and meaningless post isnt it? Hahah...its just because I'm nervous and am digitizing the tapes from my Aunt's funeral...I think am just trying to distract myself.
- Mood:
nauseated - Music:Lagaan Soundtrack
So, i received the all amazingly expensive looking invite yesterday from Deb herself. We were at Hazel's place and we all (the KDU gals) ooh-ed and aah-ed over it. Well, obviously we were waiting for it...and its about time we found out the details etc. heheh...
And so after Deb left, we began our discussion about the wedding gift, the clothes (the couple wants colour coordination) and the traveling etc. Madness!! And of course, the all practical reminder to save save save money so that we can give our friends the best wishes we can for their marital life.
And today, I got into office (it didnt start off on the right foot, as usual) and i spent some time poring through their wedding website (have not done that since the time they set it up) and started to get excited for my friends (the couple of course). Sounds like its gonna be one of those weddings that would leave everyone warm and comforted about life and God's planning. As for the couple, it sounds like (and am quite sure this will be true) that they are going to be those couples that people flock to all the time and they will reflect every good quality in a lifelong relationship.
When you talk about a small world, I think I live in it somehow... Terence (the groom) works in a company that works with World Vision for their website. AND, Deb was just offered a job by the PR company that does World Vision's PR. (she still hasnt accepted the job) SO...actually the world cant get any smaller than this I think. Six degrees of separation... ohmy, what am i going on about? HELLO?? I was supposed to be blogging so I can clear my thoughts about a project I am working on. Sigh, got distracted by all the heart shapes floating around Deb & Terence's website.
ok ok...the project. Ah damn, i dont feel like blogging about it anymore. I really should order a less fickle mind from Jusco or something. Anyone knows where to purchase a functional brain that would not get distracted and is battery operated? It would surely save me those brain dead moments.
- Mood:
numb - Music:Why by Enigma
I was going through my ex-hsemate's DA and saw some pics she had on him. Sigh. I miss having him ard.
altho I mst admit these litter free days are much less of a hassle but i really do wish I had him with me. One does miss having those pink paws padding around the house and on your face. Yes, Seth loves to pat my face with his paws...especially at 6am in the morning and he wants to be fed.
I miss the whir of his purr and his fluffy soft grey fur. And yes, Seth is a grumpy cat. Young and grumpy... takes after the owner, my frens remark... but hey! Having Seth makes me less grumpy. Eventho there are times when both of us get into arguments (like times when he does not want his nails clipped or when he thinks its high time i changed his litter - these are times when he decides to soil the toilet instead of his own litter box, or times when he thinks the rubbish bin or the outside world is more interesting compared to his food bowl or the sofa.) But its so good to have someone...something (in Seth's case) waiting for you when you get home after a long day.
I think that is why I miss 28A so much. I miss getting home to the greetings of the housemates and a grey Australian moggie with green eyes. I wish I could keep a cat where I live now, but due to circumstances, it isnt the best idea. sigh...
I miss Sethie.
- Mood:
okay
This is the first time ever, Chinese New Year is kinda quiet in my life. Am staying in KL, not many relatives are coming and well, generally quiet.
Its good tho, coz it gives me time to relax, to spend time with family, to bum and to catch up on some work (yes, i knw, verrrk!!! but there is no use complaining)
But in the meantime, hve been reading Aesop fables. The original (as original as it can get after translation) and have been really amazed as to how wonderfully written and how educational they are.
They remind me of the times when I was younger and I was reading all these stories and learning all the moral teachings from them. Will probably share about them another time.
But for now, am rushing an advertisement for Astro. I did the shooting the other day in the studio...I went a bit high...coz I think I was so relieved to be back in a creative space like a studio and doing shooting and editing and all... I miss all these dearly.
- Mood:
chipper
But moving on, was just having this discussion with a colleague: World domination...what ever for?
You know all those books and movies you watch and the villains always want world domination? Why? What is so good about dominating a world that is cracking at the edges and filled with insane people? And dont forget, these insane people dont look too well to being dominated...I would dearly love to see Penguin deal with the Green Peace organisation or the SPCA animal lovers (I mean these people can be really hard core) or the humanitarian groups (everybody is into human rights these days...or rather 'self' rights.)
Or Lord Voldemort deal with the rest of the muggles (each one almost having the imagination of 1% and certainly do not take kindly to having to knuckle under some wand swinging leader) and the SPCA animal lovers (they probably would complain about cruelty to snakes or something) And if I am not mistaken, this sentence I read yesterday from Artemis Fowl "Even numbers can subdue magic" rings true.
You know if God finds it a headache to keep the world in balance (which I think He occasionally does because humans tend to be so wayward) I would really wonder why anyone would want to pick up the job and dominate the world (and the sad thing is, you only get to be second best, because you cant possibly BE God). I know its real nice to have ultimate power and fame and stuff...but how many times would you wanna be on TV, drone about the same boring speech about you being the boss of the world and swim in gold coins? After doing all that...and living in a world that is totally cracked due to your lack of sanity to hold things in place...it would turn out to be real boring after that!
I dont understand...honestly. What is the blardy point??!?!??!
- Mood:
confused
I dreamt that I was in a different country, and it was my first night since I arrived. Happily clad in my PJ, I was about to call it a day when somehow I was whisked downstairs to the living room. Apparently my aunt had called me down (eventho there was a gap for that part, my dreams actually had to follow some form of logic and reasoning) to meet a friend who had arrived, in the late night, to meet me.
I was not very happy to see this friend. I could not decipher who it was, but I am quite certain that I was not happy to see him/her. Usually it would not be the case, even if I was in PJ, I would readily welcome my friends, night or day. But this friend made me feel, as if I was afraid. Somehow my aunt disappeared, and while this friend spoke to me (i still could not see the face) welcoming me...i felt this sense to turn really cold. As in speak coldly, and I remember that I gave that cold stare and look (which i still use on people who annoy me). But on a friend??
The dream did not really end, my alarm woke me up but the last sentence I remember saying (I cant remember the things the 'friend' said...isnt it strange that in dreams we never really can figure out the other person? or even remember what they say?) I remember saying as a scathing parting remark is " I dont want any confusion about this, at work, we can be professional but as friends, I would prefer that you stayed away to avoid my hating you."
O_o What was that??!?!??! I mean, 'as friends, i would prefer that you stayed away to avoid my HATING you'?!?!?!?!? in the first place, its kinda ironic to ask a friend to stay away...if the person had to stay away, he/she would not be a friend in the first place isnt it? As for hating someone, oh yeah, i can hate...its a normal human emotion and in the past I have disliked people (so far, I have hated only one other person) but to hate a friend...that is like...not really logical. I dunno, I seriously think my dream self wasnt thinking too straight.
Thank goodness, its just a dream. But the after effect, the tiredness, the doubt that I felt when I woke up. That is still with me. Isnt it strange that dreams can affect us? I mean we know its not real, its not something reliable like facts or reason...but still, it affects us. And that feeling of using that 'cold' treatment towards someone I should have considered a friend...I dont know...I have used it before when i am angry with friends who have done something wrong maybe, but without reason? It doesnt feel good. No...not nice at all.
But back to reality...its been some time since I actually had some form of 'drama' with friends. Not that I am asking for some drama...but it just means, and the reality of it is, I have drawn a line around me, from getting close to my friends and finding the time and effort to understand what they have been through lately.
Maybe the dream is a reminder? My subconscious speaking? Hmmm...i still cant get over that sentence...its sounds kinda cheesy too. urgh!
- Mood:
working
Anyway, excuse the absent post yesterday...office is going through a review and I was generally kept busy the entire day. To add on to that, i was really grumpy, because I just realised that the logo of our organisation could not be placed on black screen. It is against policy...but on film, I really dislike using white screen because its glaring...and it looks uglyyyyyyyyyy. So yes, i do not like producing ugly looking promotional clips, therefore the grumpy, sulky mood.
Nothing special today except the need to finish off work before the end of my term here. Yeap, am moving on but am not too sure how and where and why but am doing it. I came across some of Pastor Benny's books here and as I was reading one, about managing Pride. I realised that it is spot on.
Pride comes before a fall. We have all heard that one before. But have you heard that Pride can also lead you down a new road? If God steps in that is. :) I am already on a new road. In year 2006, my pride and ego was well, undeniably monstrous. It could not be controlled and therefore, to take me down a few pegs, God had to step in. And true to His character, as I have known Him since young, He did exactly as I deserved and would accept. By force.
A lot of people would think that is like against the rules. To force someone into something. But I have come to learn, He knows my character better than anyone in this world. And His sort of 'force' is something at the end of the day, that I appreciate. Something that I look back and think "Wow God, You really got me."
And my thought for 2008, upon looking back..."Wow God, You really got me, and I love You for doing it."
- Mood:
loved
Had a really really tiring schedule today. I had 2 training sessions to do for my project, one on chinese and one in eng. It was, eventful, because I got to meet a lot of different people and most of all, I met my old teacher from high school. She was the Interact Club advisor so it was really nostalgic to chat to her and find out what we have both been up to for the past...uhm...9 years...gosh.
Other than that, of course, I am tired to the bone. Except for the need to talk a lot while training, I had to use really on-the-alert method meaning it is not those dry boring training that we usually attend. I had interactive games that had to be suited to each situation and audience, so it was mind numbing as well...and after standing, walking and running around for almost 7 hours...you can imagine why i feel like a piece of wilted celery at the moment.
Am waiting for my sis to get out of the bathroom so I can brush my teeth and hit the sack...my legs actually feel wobbly. I hope I can walk down the stair properly tomorrow.
- Mood:
tired
Millions of people would describe it as the roller coaster moment...before that monstrous fun ride plunges from the height of the world, down the tracks. But for me, I describe it as the manhole moment. That staring into the pitch darkness of the hole...not knowing what to expect. No lovely scenery, not exhilaration. Just this dread. Because the realistic side of me is telling me that I am yet taking another bargain and risk that, well, could be minimized...but obviously I am disregarding it.
I inform my present company that I plan to leave today. My meeting with my direct supervisor is at 1pm. Another few hours.
My reason for leaving? Simple...I want to go chase my dreams, even if it seems the most unlikely thing at the moment. But I want to work hard on that...achieving something I want. And I also think that if i do not go now...i never will.
So wish me luck, wish me kindness...wish me courage.
D-day is here.
- Mood:
nervous
My sister left for Sydney on Tuesday night...sigh. It was good having her around for 2 weeks but life must go on.
So yesterday, i spent the day doing stuff I usually do not get to handle on a weekday...like watch a movie, laze ard...unfortunately I could not access the internet due to some service provider problem.
I watched "Hwang ZinYi", one of the Korean movies that came out recently...with one of my fav. Korean actresses - Song Hye Kyo.
The movie - loved the costumes, makeup etc...gorgeous scenery.
The music - melting
The story - heartbreaking
The acting - love love love!!
Anyway, I ended up feeling that kind of wrenching heartache at the end of the movie. Sad love stories have that effect you know...especially when it is properly done.
The only complaint I have is that the translation done by the local DVD producers is lousy. I realised that they translated the Eng subs from the Chinese and I have a feeling that got some creature with the IQ of an ant to do it. Here is why...I started off with Eng subs but by the 5th sentence which read: "Good elephant, brought the man out the gate..." Now, I am positive that this was not a circus show so no elephant should be bringing anyone anywhere. So i switched it to the chinese subs and restarted the show. When I came to the 5th sentence again this is how the chinese text went: "好像是他已经被留在城外。。。“
For those who know chinese and eng...you will definitely understand why the Eng subs done by an ant went wrong. I had to pause the show and giggle for about 5 mins before it hit me that people working in the media industry can really be well...stupid. No offense but if you want to do things right, you gotta have some form of quality control and well, brain power. And this is coming from an ex- media student.
ps. for more information about the movie, check it out here: http://www.hwangjiny-movie.com/main/ind
- Mood:
rushed
To be fair, my sister just came back for a 2 week holiday from Sydney. So it is only normal that she does not know the up and downs I went through last year. But i think her questions is more than valid...am i ready? Without a doubt, last year was a fantastic struggle...the sort where I look like a huge turtle on my back. And I was tired out. I mean try flipping yourself over and over again to gain no results...with the hot sun burning at your tender skin and you begin to think you are about to be fried...it must be rather exhausting. (I really do understand turtles now...seriously!)
But I vowed to begin 2008 with a more cheerful start. And no, am no longer a turtle on my back...some things in life like God, family, friends, events...things...have managed to wedge me onto my feet. But am i ready? Ready for new challenges?
This year, I am planning on making some really major changes. And to be frank, these choices scare the living daylights out of me. To give you a better picture of how deluded I am, below is a conversation i had recently with a close friend:
S: I am blardy nervous...
H: Why babe?
S: you know when you have never hit failure in life before, and after hitting the depths at one go and the prospect of making a wrong choice again is really quite scary.
H: Or rather, you THINK you have never hit failure before...
S: Yeah...or rather I never considered them as failure before. And now that I know what it feels like to be in a situation that I cant get out of...i dont know, am just afraid that the choices I make from now are warped and will never be right ever again.
H: you're thinking too much.
S: you think? Sigh, I hate hate HATE making mistakes!!!!!!!!!!!!!
H: Its ok to make mistakes, its part of being human.
S: You mean I wasnt human before this?
H: you THINK you did not make mistakes...matter of perspective.
S: Well, I hate being human then.
So there you go...i sound like a mouse cornered by a cat. Which is really unusual for me...the whining part is normal, but the fear towards challenges is new. So am trying to see if I really am going to do what I promised myself. To really be able to grab the opportunities when they come. After all, a few years ago, that was what landed me in my dream life...and if at the end of the day, God decided that I need to learn new things...so be it.
Now it is just a matter of matching my courage to God's confidence in my making the right move.
- Mood:
listless
ahem, the world stood still for a few seconds. Or rather, my mind stood still for a few seconds because then it hit me that the reporter's version of 'interview' literally meant "conduct an interview in television, newspaper, and radio reporting". It means a story...it means all I said, I did, is going onto the newspaper to be announced to the public. And the final shock of realization came when the photographer took out his massive camera and started snapping shots at my face.
I do not have any make up on. Someone kill me now...
BUT, at the very least, I am dressed properly...maybe a bit too proper as to give the public audience an impression that World Vision is run by a group of young punks who are beginning a new trend of fashion. -_-"
Sigh. But i must say I am very glad I am not going onto the photos as a kid in a t-shirt and jeans, unkempt hair and washed out face. At least I am properly groomed. As for the information I gave, I was sincerely praying at each passing moment that I was saying the rights things. Urgh, it is seriously a lot of pressure to be on the other side of the media...although I enjoy the occasional exposure, but being unprepared is truly a drag.
Lesson 1: ALWAYS expect the media to say 'interview' when they want a story
Lesson 2: Be more than prepared whenever meeting the media
Lesson 3: Maintain the need to be properly dressed, regardless of occasion to avoid the horrid surprise of sudden trigger happy ppl.
- Mood:
embarrassed
“Mum. There is a lizard in your carrrreeeiiieieieieieeeee….”
Upon saying the ‘eeeiieieeeiieie…’ I jumped out of the passenger seat followed by my mum on the other side of the vehicle.
There was a small, brown baby lizard on the dashboard. I do not like lizards. As a matter a fact, I think I have screamed more than anyone else at home whenever I encounter a lizard.
Unfortunately, my home used to strive with the horrid eye boggling creatures which would explain my behavior. I’m ok with roaches, mice, bugs…but lizards…house lizards, I cannot stand them.
Anyway, for that small lizard in the car, my mum picked up my drumsticks from the back seat and tried to chase it away but it ran into one of the slits on the dashboard. After that, she gave me the drumsticks (for self defense) and we got into the car. For the whole ride, I was eyeing the slit and giving it an occasional whack, just to make sure that the lizard is informed that something large, heavy and mean would hit it if it dared even to peek out of its hiding place.
I arrived at my destination without any mishap and I placed the drumsticks near my mum, in case she needed it.
Honestly, the amount of memories I have about lizards…freaking me from young til now…they should be enough to fit a book. I am sure many have shared my experiences…maybe not the more dramatic ones but the usual ones like finding lizards squashed between your doorframes leaving a fossil over the years. I had an experience where the lizard was not squashed but looked alive…it took me several minutes to gather the courage to walk past it out of the door…and another 10 mins to realize that it was actually dead. I think the door had hit it hard enough to kill it but it was not squashed so it just stood static on the doorframe like some stuffed museum animal.
How about the times when you are wearing a tight pair of jeans, you hop into the car and a lizard runs up your legs? Yeap…had that experience too…and believe you me, I spent the next few days jumpy coz I kept imagining those cold fingers and slithering body at my knees.
I opened my refrigerator to pick out a bottle of water while talking to someone behind me. Before I picked the bottle up, I turn back to look at what I was doing…my hands were millimeters away from holding the lizard that had somehow managed to sign its death warrant by freezing itself on the bottle handle.
The countless times in the shower when you are half undressed and then at the corner of your eye you notice movement…yeap, the all mighty lizard is in the shower with you and spraying water at it will certainly not help the situation.
Throughout all these years, I had a maid who protected me from these creepy crawlies. She just needs to hear me scream. I hardly scream, so whenever I do, she know and automatically she would grab her pest spray, broom and dustpan and come get rid of the nuisance…the lizard, not me.
Sigh. this maid is gone now, so i have to fend for myself. Chances are I might just stand and scream until I am out of breath, get dressed and beat a hasty retreat. I'll prefer to leave the lizard to find its way out...as a matter a fact, it can have the bathroom if it wants...I'll just find some bushes to ease my nature calls.
- Mood:
relieved
No, its not some relationship issue. Its a traffic affair.
If you have never been on the roads of KL in the morning, you might not grasp what I mean when I say its madness out there...especially on the Federal Highway.
On usual days, I wont be cursing all the way, but today, there were 2 particular cars who got on my nerves so much that whenever I saw them I would curse under my breath.
Yours truly has no driving license and its not a surprise as to why if you knew the rules to attain a license here (its a bummer). So my mum was dropping me off to work today, and although we were on the lane on the far left, this particular Camry decided that they would like to squeeze into the same lane...pushing my mum's car to the right. Now, honestly people...what is wrong by waiting for your turn or your chance to cut in appropriately? Instead of being so blardy rude?
And what got me more annoyed is that another car behind it, a golden car...from Sg, decided that it had to push its way through as well, since the Camry had managed to push my mum so far to the right. No offense, but hello??? What happened to courtesy on the road?
Finally my mum decided, in my words: 'Screw them!!' and cut to the lane on the right. As you would guess, I was flashing murderous looks at both cars (and in the early morning, these looks are no jokes) and it was for the whole stretch (a whooping 30 mins) of the road. And whenever I saw them, I would curse 'Bastard' (to the Camry), 'bitch' (to the golden car). An excellent way to start the day I say!
And at the end of it all, no one could figure out what caused the traffic jam in the 1st place. Dont ask, its one of those specialties of M'sian traffic to cause a jam for no reason. The only reason that could be feasible is that, there was not just one stupid Camry driver nor just one silly golden car driver. There must have been a number of them and it is their rude cutting that cause the jam.
Ah well, I never thought that i would be the sort of person to bother about such trivial things, but I realised lately that I can be most particular. And IF given the chance, I think I would have gotten out of the car, knocked on both their windows and give them a shelling...as well as the murderous look (not that it would kill anyone but at least it goes with the 'you are such a bastard/bitch' package).
- Mood:
irritated
Ah, sigh, I have office devotion now...be back later.
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Am back. As I was saying...an entry a day. Anything to keep my mind active and not constantly rotating on work and the fuzzy dont know what i am thinking in between stuff.
Today, when I was waiting in the car with a colleague waiting for some client, I heard this sentence from a song: 'I want to grow old with you'. And I thought, hey, that's a really sweet thing to say. (like duh!) As pointed out by Squishy, its from a poem by Browning entitled Grow Old Along With Me. Its a long poem, but well worth a read.
I guess this sentence beats the conventional "Marry Me!!" with doggy eyes included. It beats "Let's get a home/ HDB flat together". I think it even beats the 'I love you with all my heart and I can only see me loving you more and more over the years together.' (my, that is a really long line to say)
I'm getting out of point...what I wanted to mention here is that from that one sentence, it brought back memories of a particular short film or story i wanted to do.
Its a simple short film about an elderly couple. Chinese couple (sorry, gotta stick to my roots) and it starts off with the lady, waking up really early in the morning, and she does all the house chores, irons her husband's shirt, prepares his breakfast etc etc. All these while, you would notice that all the items that she does like the shirt, the eggs she cooks, the coffee she brews, the mop she uses, they are all in color but everything else, including the lady is in black & white.
Then we see the husband wake up, he shuffles out, does his morning duties and proceeds to dress himself in the shirt (the color fades off as he does it) eats the breakfast (obviously the color disappears down his throat) and then, in total black and white, the couple decides to go out for a walk.
On the journey, even though they walk side by side, there is a certain distance between them and they walk in silence. Suddenly a dog appears...a mad and fierce dog that charges straight for the lady. The husband springs to the front and shields the lady behind him. And finally manages to grab a stick and fights the dog off.
The husband turns around to see the wife, in a bit of a shock...but the amazing thing is, she is in full color. He goes up to her, gently pats her on the shoulder and escorts her back to the house and as they move along, the color spreads from the wife to the husband. The rest remains the dull black and white.
Now, I know its a bit wishy washy, but I think its quite obvious, if you know the way the Asian mind thinks and acts, the reasons behind the color changes and the implications behind the actions.
Its not easy I think to live with someone for the rest of your life. To grow old with someone...its so difficult because, its merging to individuals into a unit. And in the Asian culture, do not forget that marrying your partner means the joy of marrying his/her entire family (the good, bad and ugly).
I am not too certain about meeting someone who can share that sort of joy but I must say, that I certainly find joy in meeting couples who really set someone apart from the crowd, and make them their own, to grow old together with.
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